Pisalnica
*b* CHAPTER ONE*b* (pt.1)
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drugs, violence/bullying, hate speach and slurs, arguing, family issues, mentions of: self harm, suicide, smoking
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*b*Olivia*b*
I struggle to put on shoes and trying to zip up my jacket at the same time. I'll be late again.
In a rush I forget to take my chapstick, but luckily I arrive at school in time.
I throw my bag on the floor next to my table and lightly punch a person sitting next to me.
"Ayyo, whussup loser?"
They roll their eyes and smirk.
"Nice to see you to Liv."
I smile and ask:
"Is Aiden here today?"
"Nahh, he's probably somewhere out getting high."
"Your right. I just hope he's not alone, you know how clumsy he is when he's in the clouds."
They reward me with a smile and turn back to the book they were reading before I came.
Azar Lee. My best friend since year 3 and the biggest book addict I know.
They're pansexual and they identify as nonbinary. They're black and quite short. They wear braids most of the time and to be honest I am very grateful they listened to my advice and stopped straightening their hair. It really made them look like a middle school nerd.
The only thing I ever see them wear is oversized clothing. But they know how to style it and overall they look pretty swag.
They also suffer for severe anxiety and that's why they basically live on weed. They say it calms them down. Which pretty much makes sense. However they hate to drink and they're always that one friend who makes sure everyone gets home safely after a party. Basicly they're the parent of the group.
We first met when they moved schools and came to my class in 3rd grade. I was sitting in the back of the class, reading a Harry Potter book. They sat down right next to me and started giving me book recommendations. Thats how our friendship started. They were my first real friend. Later in eight grade, Aiden who used to be the popular kid came out as bi and his "friends" didn't really accept him. Thats when he started hanging out with us. Later we made some new friends at one party and now it's 5 of us hanging out.
The teacher comes to class and Azar closes the book down. Even tho they aren't a perfect kid, they always listen in school, while I put my airpods in and turn the annoying teacher's voice down.
***
After lunch I done with school for that day, as Azar still has some lessons to attend to. With my airpods in my ears I leave trough the school door. I'm planing on going home to leave my school bag there. After that I'll look for Aiden and smoke a joint or two with him.
Sadly it doesn't go as I plan.
I'm walking and listening to music as I hear someone call my name.
"Hey, Sanders!"
I close my eyes and sigh. I know who it is right away. I turn around with an annoyed look on my face, just to make an eye contact with a brown haired boy. He's tall and his body is obviously trained in fitness, if not on innocent people who piss him off.
It's Max Stonem. And he's not alone. He's whole squad is with him, standing behind and waiting for him, to give them a sign.
"What do you want?" I ask, just wanting to get it done and over with.
He puts fake suprise on his face.
"What's with the attitude? Are mad at me?"
I roll my eyes. I really don't want to deal with this today. A slight smirk shows on his face.
"Oh, so you're just in a bad mood. What's with the black shirt and emo makeup?"
Keep in mind I'm only wearing eyeliner.
"Are you depressed again? Come on, give us a wrist reveal."
Anger is starting to boil in me. I hate when they say this. How can they be making fun of things like that?
"Shut up, Max," I say without thinking.
That's a mistake. His smirk disappears from his face.
"Be careful with what you say, Sanders" he says and makes a fist.
"For your own good."
He punches me in the face. My vision blurres, the pain starts to flourish.
As soon as he does that, the others move from their positions and start to beat me up. By the second punch, I fall on the ground. Before I can even think of standing up, someone kicks me in the stomach. Kicks and punches keeps coming and when they finally stop, I have to try really hard not to faint.
Max's face showes up infront of me. He kneels down.
"This is what you get for being a fucking faggot," he spits.
"And next time you try to kill yourself, come to me. I'll gladly do it for you."
He stands up and while he's leaving I hear him say: "Fucking emo," right before I faint.
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drugs, violence/bullying, hate speach and slurs, arguing, family issues, mentions of: self harm, suicide, smoking
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*b*Olivia*b*
I struggle to put on shoes and trying to zip up my jacket at the same time. I'll be late again.
In a rush I forget to take my chapstick, but luckily I arrive at school in time.
I throw my bag on the floor next to my table and lightly punch a person sitting next to me.
"Ayyo, whussup loser?"
They roll their eyes and smirk.
"Nice to see you to Liv."
I smile and ask:
"Is Aiden here today?"
"Nahh, he's probably somewhere out getting high."
"Your right. I just hope he's not alone, you know how clumsy he is when he's in the clouds."
They reward me with a smile and turn back to the book they were reading before I came.
Azar Lee. My best friend since year 3 and the biggest book addict I know.
They're pansexual and they identify as nonbinary. They're black and quite short. They wear braids most of the time and to be honest I am very grateful they listened to my advice and stopped straightening their hair. It really made them look like a middle school nerd.
The only thing I ever see them wear is oversized clothing. But they know how to style it and overall they look pretty swag.
They also suffer for severe anxiety and that's why they basically live on weed. They say it calms them down. Which pretty much makes sense. However they hate to drink and they're always that one friend who makes sure everyone gets home safely after a party. Basicly they're the parent of the group.
We first met when they moved schools and came to my class in 3rd grade. I was sitting in the back of the class, reading a Harry Potter book. They sat down right next to me and started giving me book recommendations. Thats how our friendship started. They were my first real friend. Later in eight grade, Aiden who used to be the popular kid came out as bi and his "friends" didn't really accept him. Thats when he started hanging out with us. Later we made some new friends at one party and now it's 5 of us hanging out.
The teacher comes to class and Azar closes the book down. Even tho they aren't a perfect kid, they always listen in school, while I put my airpods in and turn the annoying teacher's voice down.
***
After lunch I done with school for that day, as Azar still has some lessons to attend to. With my airpods in my ears I leave trough the school door. I'm planing on going home to leave my school bag there. After that I'll look for Aiden and smoke a joint or two with him.
Sadly it doesn't go as I plan.
I'm walking and listening to music as I hear someone call my name.
"Hey, Sanders!"
I close my eyes and sigh. I know who it is right away. I turn around with an annoyed look on my face, just to make an eye contact with a brown haired boy. He's tall and his body is obviously trained in fitness, if not on innocent people who piss him off.
It's Max Stonem. And he's not alone. He's whole squad is with him, standing behind and waiting for him, to give them a sign.
"What do you want?" I ask, just wanting to get it done and over with.
He puts fake suprise on his face.
"What's with the attitude? Are mad at me?"
I roll my eyes. I really don't want to deal with this today. A slight smirk shows on his face.
"Oh, so you're just in a bad mood. What's with the black shirt and emo makeup?"
Keep in mind I'm only wearing eyeliner.
"Are you depressed again? Come on, give us a wrist reveal."
Anger is starting to boil in me. I hate when they say this. How can they be making fun of things like that?
"Shut up, Max," I say without thinking.
That's a mistake. His smirk disappears from his face.
"Be careful with what you say, Sanders" he says and makes a fist.
"For your own good."
He punches me in the face. My vision blurres, the pain starts to flourish.
As soon as he does that, the others move from their positions and start to beat me up. By the second punch, I fall on the ground. Before I can even think of standing up, someone kicks me in the stomach. Kicks and punches keeps coming and when they finally stop, I have to try really hard not to faint.
Max's face showes up infront of me. He kneels down.
"This is what you get for being a fucking faggot," he spits.
"And next time you try to kill yourself, come to me. I'll gladly do it for you."
He stands up and while he's leaving I hear him say: "Fucking emo," right before I faint.
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Honestly I love Azar. They're an icon.
Also Max shut tf up and get your ugly ass outta here. Thank you.
Edina stvar ki me je zmotila poleg tega da malce manjka description na stvar okoli (kakšna je miza, če ima kaj vrezano vanjo itd.) je treba razločit grožnjo in posledice ko ga ne upoštevaš. On ji je zagrozil in navalil naslednjo sekundo kar pomeni da ni naredila nič proti temu. Take stvari so dosti pomembne. Pač če bi vrinila še en njen stavek vmes ko bi ona rekla: No, I don't think I will ali kaj podobnega bi pa v bistvu šlo kar gladko (pa če bi dala ven tisto: That's a mistake, hkrati, drugače raje pusti kot je, bo boljše). That's my opinion ampak overall držim pesti da ne nasrka še bolj! Also I can't wait to find out who's going to find her (please don't let her crawl home alone)!
~Z ljubeznijo, Raven
Also Max shut tf up and get your ugly ass outta here. Thank you.
Edina stvar ki me je zmotila poleg tega da malce manjka description na stvar okoli (kakšna je miza, če ima kaj vrezano vanjo itd.) je treba razločit grožnjo in posledice ko ga ne upoštevaš. On ji je zagrozil in navalil naslednjo sekundo kar pomeni da ni naredila nič proti temu. Take stvari so dosti pomembne. Pač če bi vrinila še en njen stavek vmes ko bi ona rekla: No, I don't think I will ali kaj podobnega bi pa v bistvu šlo kar gladko (pa če bi dala ven tisto: That's a mistake, hkrati, drugače raje pusti kot je, bo boljše). That's my opinion ampak overall držim pesti da ne nasrka še bolj! Also I can't wait to find out who's going to find her (please don't let her crawl home alone)!
~Z ljubeznijo, Raven
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Haha, Azar is indeed my baby.
Drugeče, pa hvala za nasvet se bom potrudila, da čim bolj upoštevam;)
~Liv
Drugeče, pa hvala za nasvet se bom potrudila, da čim bolj upoštevam;)
~Liv
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Najprej...Naslov je res zelooo vabljiv, mogoče meni, ker sem zdej očitno ratala obsedena s kinda depresivnimi knjigami, al pa je naslov resss dober, drugič..Tale del mi je bil super res...Nadaljuj s pisanjem, Liv, ker ti gre odlično!!!!
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hun, to je amazing. actually je ful nice. pa se vidi da mas talent, nadaljuj s tem. lepo se mi zdi da pises v english in v slovenscini, men je osebno angleska verzija bolj pri srcu ker se tud meni zdi da ko kaj pisem, lazje kaj opisujem v anglescini in najdem pridevnike. tudi uvod sem prebrala pa je supr aswell.
lepo se mej, anika <33
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potrebuje pomoč ali nasvet v
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Js pa RES ne vem a je ona vame
jo
vrjamem da je na pili ze cel kup podobnih objav o ljubezni na to foro- a je vame, bla bla bla.. sam pr men je pomojem se useen mau drgac. Hear me out:
Začetek// Men je ena punca ratala ful usec prblizn junija tega leta. je moja paralelka oba sva 9 razred. no ja in glih pred koncem osmega razreda smo šli na en izlet z šolo k je bla ona tud tm, pa zravn je šu še en moj dobr prjatu. Na temu izletu sm njemu povedou da mi je ona ful lepa (pa tud personality pa res najbolsi!) in je on zaceu to tko na glas govort tm pred vsemi pa jo nekej zajebavat z mano, ampak nism biu jezn, actually mi je blo dobr da me je sploh opazila. no ampak pol je njej ta moj frend ratou ze mau nadlezn in je bla tko mal jezna name ker ga nism ustavu, pa me je sam vprasala Ce sm vanjo- pa sm reku da Ne (ja js sm retard).
Avgust// Poletne počitnce, nje nism vidu ze nekej časa ker sta njena starša ločena in je bla skoz pr drugmu staršu. No in en dan ona men piše nekej v zvezi če mam js nek problem z njo (ker so eni k jih poznam se neki skregal z njo). in sva se mal pogovarjala par dni pač kako kej lajf.. in pol sm jo vprašu če bi šla z mano na valeto? pa je najprej rekla ne- ker ji je ena njena prjatlca rekla da misl da sm v njo (kako je uganila). no ja in sm se ji spet mogu zlagat da nism vanjo in zdej greva na valeto! na plesnih (mi jih ze mamo) je use ful fajn supr. in zdej že ene dva mesca si tko vsak dan snepam z to punco in je ful fajn pa tko js probam bit dost flirty pa ona tud tko taka use complimente pa nikol ni blo nv narobe. No in ti sm itak povedu mojmu najbolsmu prjatlu in pol se reci pac širjo in je to tud zvedu un moj prjatu iz izleta k mi je blo cist ok sj sva šekr dobra prjatla, in pač zdej ene dva tedna tko govoril tej punci da je ona moj fan pa mal jo zajebava...
En teden nazaj// No ona mene vpraša na snepu zakaj ta moj prjatu skoz to govori pac zakaj misl da bi js pa ona lah bla skp. in mu pišem da ona sprašuje. in pol se pogovarjam z njemu pa realisava da wow da jo zanimajo razlogi da bi bla z mano?? no in pol ji recem da moj frend prau da bi zgledala k fletn parck. pa ona tko posle :skull:. in poj recem Zakaj te sploh to tok zanima a isces razloge zakaj bit z mano a kva haha. in ona reče Actually... in poj se "A se ti zdi da js iscem tipa? Pa zakaj ta tvoj prjatu sploh govori to men? Ker brez zamere sam js nism vate."
Včeraj// spet si snepam z njo zdej od takrt vsak dan o tem.. o ljubezni.. kaj sploh je ljubezen, kako je blo z njenmu prejsnmu (poznam ga pa vem vse podrobnosti pa pac on je neki silu vanjo pa ga je ona pustila in jo je strah spet).
Danes// pac snepava si cist normaln nc ni awkward ona mi ful zaupa pa reku sm ji da je to res sweet pa je rekla daj to cute..
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js sm res ful vanjo pa res ne vem a ona je vame a ni.. vsaj mal.. ne vem a sm sam zloo deep friendzoned al kej je?? ne vem al nej ji sploh povem da sm js vanjo pa sm pac cist iskren pa mogoc pol se ona pove po resnici ce je kej drugac? (sam ce res ni vame bom izpadu ful weird pa mogoc mau desparate pa se nocem zgubit njenga zaupanja.)
Al nej sam se cakam pa probam improvat sebe se mal pa se pogovarjat z njo cim vec (nism chopped sam bi lah zgledou bols).. pa se ona je mogoc mal nepredvidljiva pa tezko ves kaj res misl…
k sva govorila glih o prejsnjih njenih crushih pa to se je useen zdel k da je bla ona dost jasna z njimi kaj hoče.. pa vem se da skoz čaka da tip nrdi first move pa to.. tkoda nevem kaj zdej hahah
šekr mam dost upanja no nevem zakaj sam mam
Res hvala če ste to prebral, upam da če si to ti, ki te ljubim, ne bereš tega hahaha
pa zlo mi ke zou za te grozne slovnične napake, sj zarad mene dej ta text u chatgpt nej ti nrdi povzetek pa pravilno slovensko hahah
Gre za resnično zgodbo, deli so skrajšani, zato vprašaj za dodaten info brez problema.
Jelkic
(prosm ne gledat mojga profila k nism biu active pol leta :skull:)
vrjamem da je na pili ze cel kup podobnih objav o ljubezni na to foro- a je vame, bla bla bla.. sam pr men je pomojem se useen mau drgac. Hear me out:
Začetek// Men je ena punca ratala ful usec prblizn junija tega leta. je moja paralelka oba sva 9 razred. no ja in glih pred koncem osmega razreda smo šli na en izlet z šolo k je bla ona tud tm, pa zravn je šu še en moj dobr prjatu. Na temu izletu sm njemu povedou da mi je ona ful lepa (pa tud personality pa res najbolsi!) in je on zaceu to tko na glas govort tm pred vsemi pa jo nekej zajebavat z mano, ampak nism biu jezn, actually mi je blo dobr da me je sploh opazila. no ampak pol je njej ta moj frend ratou ze mau nadlezn in je bla tko mal jezna name ker ga nism ustavu, pa me je sam vprasala Ce sm vanjo- pa sm reku da Ne (ja js sm retard).
Avgust// Poletne počitnce, nje nism vidu ze nekej časa ker sta njena starša ločena in je bla skoz pr drugmu staršu. No in en dan ona men piše nekej v zvezi če mam js nek problem z njo (ker so eni k jih poznam se neki skregal z njo). in sva se mal pogovarjala par dni pač kako kej lajf.. in pol sm jo vprašu če bi šla z mano na valeto? pa je najprej rekla ne- ker ji je ena njena prjatlca rekla da misl da sm v njo (kako je uganila). no ja in sm se ji spet mogu zlagat da nism vanjo in zdej greva na valeto! na plesnih (mi jih ze mamo) je use ful fajn supr. in zdej že ene dva mesca si tko vsak dan snepam z to punco in je ful fajn pa tko js probam bit dost flirty pa ona tud tko taka use complimente pa nikol ni blo nv narobe. No in ti sm itak povedu mojmu najbolsmu prjatlu in pol se reci pac širjo in je to tud zvedu un moj prjatu iz izleta k mi je blo cist ok sj sva šekr dobra prjatla, in pač zdej ene dva tedna tko govoril tej punci da je ona moj fan pa mal jo zajebava...
En teden nazaj// No ona mene vpraša na snepu zakaj ta moj prjatu skoz to govori pac zakaj misl da bi js pa ona lah bla skp. in mu pišem da ona sprašuje. in pol se pogovarjam z njemu pa realisava da wow da jo zanimajo razlogi da bi bla z mano?? no in pol ji recem da moj frend prau da bi zgledala k fletn parck. pa ona tko posle :skull:. in poj recem Zakaj te sploh to tok zanima a isces razloge zakaj bit z mano a kva haha. in ona reče Actually... in poj se "A se ti zdi da js iscem tipa? Pa zakaj ta tvoj prjatu sploh govori to men? Ker brez zamere sam js nism vate."
Včeraj// spet si snepam z njo zdej od takrt vsak dan o tem.. o ljubezni.. kaj sploh je ljubezen, kako je blo z njenmu prejsnmu (poznam ga pa vem vse podrobnosti pa pac on je neki silu vanjo pa ga je ona pustila in jo je strah spet).
Danes// pac snepava si cist normaln nc ni awkward ona mi ful zaupa pa reku sm ji da je to res sweet pa je rekla daj to cute..
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js sm res ful vanjo pa res ne vem a ona je vame a ni.. vsaj mal.. ne vem a sm sam zloo deep friendzoned al kej je?? ne vem al nej ji sploh povem da sm js vanjo pa sm pac cist iskren pa mogoc pol se ona pove po resnici ce je kej drugac? (sam ce res ni vame bom izpadu ful weird pa mogoc mau desparate pa se nocem zgubit njenga zaupanja.)
Al nej sam se cakam pa probam improvat sebe se mal pa se pogovarjat z njo cim vec (nism chopped sam bi lah zgledou bols).. pa se ona je mogoc mal nepredvidljiva pa tezko ves kaj res misl…
k sva govorila glih o prejsnjih njenih crushih pa to se je useen zdel k da je bla ona dost jasna z njimi kaj hoče.. pa vem se da skoz čaka da tip nrdi first move pa to.. tkoda nevem kaj zdej hahah
šekr mam dost upanja no nevem zakaj sam mam
Res hvala če ste to prebral, upam da če si to ti, ki te ljubim, ne bereš tega hahaha
pa zlo mi ke zou za te grozne slovnične napake, sj zarad mene dej ta text u chatgpt nej ti nrdi povzetek pa pravilno slovensko hahah
Gre za resnično zgodbo, deli so skrajšani, zato vprašaj za dodaten info brez problema.
Jelkic
(prosm ne gledat mojga profila k nism biu active pol leta :skull:)
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ooo ful dobr bom spremlala pa the fact da ...
res:kissing_heart::relieved::relaxed::upside_down::kissing_closed_eyes::blush::grinning::g
uuu, bom brala z veseljem
Fuuuul dooobrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Spremljam!!!!!!:grinning::hugging::hugging::grinning::grinni
O koook dobr pa lepooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:clap::clap::clap::clap::clap::clap::clap::clap::cla