TW!
This story will contain mentions of; selfharm, suicide attempt(s), different types of eating disorder, anxiety, panic attacks, substance abuse, sexual assult and different types of mental illnesses/disorders.

If you could be triggered by any of these, please don't read this story. If you are struggling from anything from above, please seek profesional help and remember that you are beautiful, you are loved and you are worthy<3.

There will still be trigger warrnings at the start of every chapter, warning about anything that could be possibly triggering. So always feel free to skip the possibly triggering chapters:).
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*b*INTRO*b*
*modra*TWs for this chapter:*modra*
Smoking, negative thoughts
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*b*Olivia Sanders (15y/o)*b*

*i*It's*i* 12.00pm.
*i*I get out of the bed and quickly grab jacket, phone and a pack of cigarettes. While walking down the stairs I put the jacket on. It's October and it's getting cold. I'm not even trying to stay quiet as I leave trough the back door. I know mum wouldn't care at this point.*i*

*i*I look at the time on my phone. It's*i* 12.10pm *i*and I'm out of the house. I put my airpods in and let the music consume me. I'm walking down the street in the mid dark. The only source of light are weak street lights, twitching in the silence of the night. It's peaceful and calming on my always racing mind. *i*

12.30pm. *i*Walking through the woods that I'm so familiar with, that I can find a way even in complete dark.*i*

*i*At*i* 12.35pm *i*I arrive at my usual spot. The grass is wet and the night air is cold. The trees in te background are giving a comforting shadow, created by the moon light. The view is amazing as always. I sit on the ground and take a look at the city infront of me. I go trough my phone to check the socials. Some of my friends are still up.*i*

*i*"Hey," I hear from behind me. I look back in confusion.*i*
*i*There's a girl standing in front of me. I don't know her.*i*
*i*Even tho I cant see her face properly, I can tell that her mid long hair is colored red.*i*
*i*"Hi," I answer after a moment of silence.*i*
*i*"What are you doing here?" I ask.*i*
*i*"I came for a night walk. What about you?"*i*
*i*"I usually come here at night to smoke. It's quite and calming."*i*
*i*"Feel you. Can I join?"*i*
*i*I'm not really excited about her company, I want to be alone. But I don't want to be rude so I nod as I put my phone down.*i*

*i*I take the pack of cigarettes out of my pocket.*i*
*i*"Want one?"*i*
*i*"Can we share?"*i*
*i*"Sure."*i*
*i*I take one cig out of the pack and light it up. I make a strong inhale and pass her the cig as I puff the smoke in the night sky. I don't know why, but something about that girls presence is starting to feel a little comforting.*i*

*i*As she takes the cigarette to her mouth with her long pale fingers, clock on my phone turnes *i*1.00am.
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Hejla, končno sem se spravila objavit tole. Objavljala bom tudi slovensko verzijo, ampak občasno z manjšim zamikom, saj je original v angleščini. Sicer zgodbo pišem na Wattpadu, ampak še ni objavljena.
Vesela bi bila kakršnih koli komentarjev ali kritik, ter predlogov, kako lahko svoje pisanje izboljšam:)

~Liv